Moons and Junes and Ferris Wheels

Joni Mitchell - Both Sides Now

Rows and flows of angel hair
And ice cream castles in the air
And feather canyons ev'rywhere
I've looked at clouds that way
But now they only block the sun
They rain and snow on everyone
So many things I would have done
But clouds got in my way
I've looked at clouds from both sides now
From up and down, and still somehow
It's cloud illusions I recall
I really don't know clouds at all

Moons and Junes and Ferris wheels
The dizzy dancing way you feel
As ev'ry fairy tale comes real
I've looked at love that way

But now it's just another show
You leave 'em laughing when you go
And if you care, don't let them know
Don't give yourself away

I've looked at love from both sides now
From give and take, and still somehow
It's love's illusions I recall
I really don't know love at all

Tears and fears and feeling proud
To say "I love you" right out loud
Dreams and schemes and circus crowds
I've looked at life that way

But now old friends are acting strange
They shake their heads, they say I've changed
Well something's lost, but something's gained
In living ev'ry day

I've looked at life from both sides now
From win and lose and still somehow
It's life's illusions I recall
I really don't know life at all
I've looked at life from both sides now
From up and down, and still somehow
It's life's illusions I recall
I really don't know life at all

Suddenly things are so different. 

ManChild is asking Fannie Farmer to marry him today. 

JD called me this morning and told me she can't imagine her life without AB in it. 

JZ started a new job today waiting tables in one of the nicer restaurants in the area. It's where JD used to work. 

BB took the ACT for the first time today and KC and I have been answering his college entrance questions.

I like seeing everyone progress and change, I admit it. But I often reflect back and wonder if I did enough. I suppose if I had known that life as a SAHM with 8 children was not actually going to last forever, I might have tried a little harder during the rougher times. 

Hmmmm.

I wonder what's next?